KAIYING Super sad , I can't catch up my dance lesson today. Xue Hui taught us, dunno is too tired then cannot concentrate or my dancing skills very poor. Hais sad , WHY CANT CONCENTRATE ? Hais HAIS HAIS . disappointment again, exam coming up . I went home and pray, I give up on my dreams but going Your way. I know you are training me , upgrading me . I will , I can and I MUST

KAIYING ; she wants to get super good grades. JUST WATCH AND SEE :X
Everyone is burning the mid night oil, even whose who hate now grasps so tightly and even sleep with it.Dreaming about physics and POA is my nightmare.Biology, Mathematics , Geography , SS and Chinese saying I LOVE YOU PLEASE STUDY ME! The fear of English paper make me non-stop writing in my ten year series.My dancing time cut off from 99.999% to 33.33%. Every single teacher walk in the class speaking the say old verses , making all the students so afraid not to study. N level is coming up soon, Friends you better start studying and you will get good grades. But no shortcuts ! I read in a book and its states All things are possible with Christ who strengthens me. It is up to you to believe. STUDY TIME , see you :)

I wish I could die spiritually . I said I want to walk in righteousness but Its not easy. Temptation is not easy to overcome.

Unchanging enduring obeying

I want RIGHTEOUSNESS
10 MORAL laws
10 PROMISES ; SACRIFICING
For Him who is in ME

SPIRITUALLY MENTALLY PHYSICALLY
thirsty but running



I LOVE my heavenly Lord

I had great time teaching peiqi dance , she look so adorable when she say " i dunno la". HA HA , in fact she learn fast. E401 prayer meeting at my house , Enjoying every moments in God presence. Nothing else could compare! And finally i get to play audition once , IN ADEL LAPTOP. DAMN COOL , but i'm super lousy. Okay I'm off to sleep , have not being sleeping well. WHY? Sammi make me waited for 2 nights , In the end i never talk to him.



PeiQi , isn't she cute?

I wanted to take alone , But .. hah

Finally a perfect shot


The best things i ever done is to forgive you . missing~

HELLOOO

HI THERE , today is another day to work hard . HA HA~ my blog very inspiriting yeah.
Met Li ting and i get to know one new friend , Darren.. Well his quite fun.I went to dance lesson , the steps was good la. But i need more more practise, GUESS WHAT? XUEHUI is teaching next lesson... BLAR BLAR BLAR . Discourage .. DISCOURAGE ANW JIAYOU!

I have to study , N level coming up soon. I sign up CHEC tuition class with tee hou and We have to study really hard for God we will.

1) God
2) Study first/ DANCE
3) Play


I choose not to join dance crew now , because i want to practise and get my style and my N level . Sorry Eugene for the back out :(


I SUPER LIKE THE MIRROR

Slackingg day

This is the day that the Lord has made , I will rejoice and be glad in it . I promise myself to love God more :) Yesterday i went out with Peiqi , And i had great time with her.We ate donuts , she insist me to upload the photos in my blog .I went to meet Sammi after my tuition , and saw the bunch of friends i use to slack with.Things are really different compare to the past.To me it was much more fun than now. It was really the EXCCCIITTIINNGGG days.Like what Sammi said , Its different!! No more eating chewing gums and cracking jokes.After all they made history.Anyway I miss the times ..BUT I believe i will have better history to make. LA LA~ cling on and walk in faith...


this is for PEIQI :) , LOVE

SAD

This is the first time i see you crying, it shocked me . I thought u were strong and brave.I think that you really come to an extend that your heart cannot contain anything. Knowing that i could not help you ..but I want to be the friend that be there for you.At least be there to cheer you up.Really hope that nothing will happen to you.It seem to be no turning point yet i really believe everything happen because of a purpose.Giving examples like you being dump by your boyfriend ,but you will never know if better guys appear.Guys treasure your life, don't ruin it.

Take all of me

To my beloved best friend Peiqi:

I know that you think i have change.In the past you know how stupid life is for me.
Who is this girl? because of a problem , and she think everything has came to an end.Thinking of how to die every single day? Sometimes i flashed back and realised how stupid I was but i will never forget these days.6 Months of my life wasted.But i really want to thank you,in my darkest valley i still see light.You say that you never trust any guy anymore, same goes to me. But after emerge'07 i feel love again, truly i know its still the most beautiful thing in the world.And you always think that you are not good in everything you do. Let me tell you , you don't need to be the prettiest.I mean you don't need to worry about all this. You are the way you made.And if you cause this to be your worrys then you will miss out a lot of things.
Is what people think about you so important? You are not living for them my dear girl.I really hope that you will come back to God, cause i believe God has greater calling for you. Anyway i want to restore our friendship again.




God i love you , i love you forever ..

Busy Busy Busy

THREE DAYS never post . Ha ha, sorry I'm really busy. Yeah .. I completed my one-star kayaking. Super fun , now having sun burn but its a good experience. Straight after kayaking Adeline call and she ask me to join them performing tomorrow. Which i only have one day to learn all the steps. I never consider long and decided to try out.Its really really very tough for me. I'm a reggae dancer and never dance hip hop or locking before.Any way i practise very very hard, I remembered i practise until tears started rolling down my cheeks.Because i really cannot catch the locking part and the performance is tomorrow. People ask me not to join because they think is impossible, but I'm doing this for God.Whatsoever i did not give up, and i did it! ha ha , that day i was really enjoying myself. I get to know new friends and guess what people approaching me to join dance crew. HO HO , I love dancing even more and my spiritual life grew.

half alive

TII RREDD ; yawn yawn .
Plan to go swimming but heaven is helping me . It rained and we went to Bedok stadium to practised dance after the HOTCAKES at mac.As i said practise make perfect.But i managed to go swimming under the HOT sun. These days never take any pictures cos i exchange phone with Kerin, I get it back!! AND MORE PICTURES SOON ..x)
Finally get to hang out with Peiqi , It was fun but tiring. As usual.. the highlights "shuai ge". SEE NO TOUCH . >< I need to get seriously and use my time wise . I studying tomorrow morning. got to go , bye :)

tired yet worthy

I'm tired yet excited .. My fire is still burning. Whole day dancing, I'm super happy. Went to SMU to practise, i met a lot of friends. Thanks to Li ting. They are dancer too, some even preparing for project O. I want project O , badly. And i found out project O is consist of Hip Hop ,Street jazz ,popping ,locking and so on. BUT not reggae , sad. OH ya , i went to Oschool today... Hip hop master class!, so PRO .
Anyway i want thank God x)

LOVES

This is the day the Lord has made i will rejoice and be glad in it.I shouted and did the JUMPING . ha ha , this week very busy. Hardy have time with Peiqi, I'm sorry.
Later going dance practise.Have a privilege to perform but i choose not to. I felt that Adel's friend dislike me. Well maybe I'm not very good. Anywhere they have enough people. There is a longing in my heart, I want to obey His word. I pray that He will make my unbelief to believe. I want faith .

THE BIG GROOVE

So EXCITING i went THE BIG GROOVE 2007. WOO! The dancer from Japan was great.
Well.. to me Oschool dancer are BETTER . MUAHAH.. Yet it inspire me a lot , i want to join project O. I want it badly and i will work SUPER SUPPPPEERR hard .
Bible say All things are possible.If it is God's will then surely i can, and i want to dance for God. My fire is burning , thirsty for your word and running daily with you.

Irritating .. thousand of calls woke me up this morning . I drag myself to meet Kerin, we went to buy ingredients to make fruit salad and almond jelly. First time in life i doing this .. How CCCRRRRRRRAZZZYYY. Anyway its for cell group, the food was quite nice .Cell group meeting was amazing, how the presence of God touch me today.Millions of things running through my mind.Wondering what is my dream, what am i aiming in life. I'm not sure ,i have a very big dream. I will run to it and work very very hard than people out there. Yet I'm not sure whether this is God's calling.No matter what God wants me to be, i will be. Even its not the dream i want.

NO , I TELL YOU WHO I WANNA BE ..

Everything was destroy after the break up.Leaving fears to face the world.
I blame every single thing to myself.What the f*ck, for you i given up my God my friends in church ,Guitar lesson , shopping , my cca and maybe time with my family .
Since when i fail to be with you except when I'm overseas.And that's what everything change.I knew it happened long ago its like 2007 NOW and it happened in 2006..
But i knew i was running away from the truth. Guys it is not easy to overcome this,
this is why i stop blogging long before.Because i used to blog things like how happy days with him. He have a new girlfriend , and that make it worst that time.I always met them downstairs and i really looked at them with hatred in my heart.I'm sorry then,but not now. I cried to myself day and night, asking who i am , why do i exist in this world for. It sound drama but wait till it happen to you. All along i being admiring pretty looking girls out there. Asking in my heart that why cant i be like them? And I'm sick of it , finding out what pretty girls look like and be like them? No way! Guys i going my way now. Going back to church , having dance lesson , talk to the way i want , dress the way i want and basically everything is about me.
People assume that i never go in any relationship because i still love him. And me saying that i lose all trust in guys but it was just a cover up for me.Guys downstairs gossip how flirt and talk bad things about me . You guys think i don't know ?Yet i know it all. But I'm too sick of being angry with myself. And i really can't stand people OVER-gossip. I understand that gossip is human natural BUT people OVER-GOSSIP.
People downstairs stop betting that u can get me or you cant.I never want to have YOU back because i realised I'm not myself with you and you are not the same any more.Don't misunderstand i stop loving you .All i want is to be myself

Jail

Finally had some sleep yesterday.I woke up early in the morning at 8.30. I looked at my mirror and started brushing my teeth. It was quite surprising that i woke up so early to study with Hafiza. I arrived at the marina library at 10 and purchase Letta to keep me from entering my dream. I cram the subject i hate the most. PHYSICS . It was damn boring. But we manage to study until 3. I came home and paint my nails blue and mess up with my sister's hair . HA HA . Overall I'm in high spirit, i guess its EMERGE making me due into it . Yuppie , tomorrow going swimming again . And I'm really excited . Today kills me DEAD BORED



*some emerge pictures