xoxo: March 2010

28 March 2010

I must improve

Dance work 2010! Hello people DW finally came to an end , I'm so happy even if we didn't win . This is my first competition and I'll never forget how Soul good crew went through ! Love you guys a lot!

Anyway I went to see the my first dance competition (Singapore Dance Delight ) Yew~ like finally no need to watch it in youtube! I really don't know how to describe how amazing are those dancers !

Some crew just make me want to dance and level up quickly! One of my favourite is basic five ! They make me want to learn lock so much! Ya and some dancer their groove is just fcuking dope!

Fcuk la I really need to improve and tell you what I love dance .

20 March 2010

Different style ! Hello people I have new inspiration! :)

I want to learn more improve and level up! I really don't understand why some people would be so proud and yaya like as if he/she dance super fucking dope to the max. Okay look! I'm not been sensitive cause It never happen to me but one of my friend and from what i observe. I know I have no rights to say but it kinda pisses me off ! Be humble la , if not you'll never know if one day the " poorer in dance " will success and do better than you. I'm sure all of us have different style and I feel that dancing bond us because we have the same passion. Why hate ? Why jealous?, when you can learn more from each other and improve .

14 March 2010

colourful love :)

I really love tie dye . So gonna do it for myself once I got the dye! So excited~

13 March 2010

Grown up!

I miss my friends so much! I'm so gonna find time to enjoy kays! I miss shopping and miss FASHION AND DIY things. I so gonna resume everything and start having fun with my hobby after I quit this f job

Some of my DIY ( with my sister )

* The rings is with my friend and she haven return back . I miss them .

7 March 2010

better in time

I might look like I'm completely fine but I'm fucking not fine when the sky turn dark and I'm all alone facing the world myself. I seat at the edge of my bed silently hoping that someone can rescued me from this torturing. I really can't digest this now okay now ! Peace , I use the word now cause I know someday it's gonna be over and I believe that problems will go away . I'm sure that it will visit you soon after you have overcome one ; so take care my friends.
Breathe kaiying , you're still consider lucky compare to others. I think I never learn my lesson . It's okay make mistake learn and die. move on , be good be better . learn.

There is so much more I want to share about my feelings . It's so damn fucking painful that sometimes i can't take it but I chose to keep to myself cause I know it doesn't help when I speak , it'll be still there .
It hint us bad but we still have the love, somehow . It hurt slowly , deeper and longer to heal . I can't figure out why and when fb have status complicated ; i finally know the reason now. When I was younger I thought I was too young to understand love and now I'm 19 ; ok nevermind I think when I'm 28 I'll know okay maybe later later later and later when I get old .
Fine ! I still don't understand ; and I'll put you in the deepest soul and continue moving on ... I'll deal with my passion and thank God i have one . oh and it's my passion and family keep me going. Take note that I didn't use friends cause I really don't know who is the real one of there ; only a few. When I recall how a 10 years friendship fail when she have a new love . It's unfair cause I treated her so real and love her so much that I would stand up for her for anything. I will be remember for life .

I'll definitely think of you and I'm gonna miss you so much . yes so much

4 March 2010

fated

It's not that I don't like is I fucking don't have talent compare to all and I'm like so lack behind and the feeling sucks, trust me.

I wish i was born with talent f , im useless okay

by myself

I've learnt that the people you love most are going to be the ones who hurt you the worst, but you're going to have to learn to forgive them for that, simply because you love them. I've learnt trust, and the vulnerability of it; how it takes years to build, but only takes suspicion to break. I've learnt that the most cliche saying ever, "never judge a book by its cover", might just be the most true. I've learnt that no matter how bad your problems are, there's always someone out there having it worse. I've learnt that good doesn't always triumph in the end. I've learnt that sometimes forgiving yourself might be the hardest to do. I've learnt never to give up on the future, no matter how bleak it may seem, because whatever negative thing's happening to you now will pass in time. I've learnt never to set your goal too early in life, because sometimes it doesn't help but instead prevents you from trying out other things.I've learnt that home is always the best, and that family will always stand by you, even though you might not have talked to them for a long time. I've learnt that sometimes the best company is your own. I've learnt that passion is never enough to get what you want; talent counts for more than anyone thinks. I've learnt that sometimes the things we hold onto aren't really what we want to keep; it's just that we're afraid of letting go of the familiar. I've learnt that to let go doesn't necessarily mean to forgive and forget; it simply means to accept.And finally, I've learnt that if you want to love others, you must first learn to love yourself.