There is still a long long way to go ..

I supposed to have training today but somehow I skip cause i'm super lazy and tired. I slept all the way to 7pm and when I woke up I feel damn guilty for not going dance today. 7pm and i should be at E4 bouncing instead!

Anyway in another way It's kind of good that I never go practice today cause it has been soooooooooooo long since I last saw my dad and mom. :)

Performance for pre-opening is finally over . Yeah and SGC did a pretty good job! AND I SO HAPPY  cause my friends came to watch my performance esp Vivian !

My first performance that I had the guts to ask my friends because I always felt that I am not good enough!
And I'm not saying that I'm good now hahah it's just that ..... ARGH ... i don't know . Cause I'll work very hard for them to see the best of me?

There is still so much things to learn and so many things I need to practice and so many room to improve.

Exam coming .......
wtf and I have not been going to school so often!  I swear I will never skip school already!

ANYWAY~ Thursday gonna perform in school @ south agora at 4pm!

Although our item is not very dope but please do support SGC :)

Gonna party so soon man , so looking forward! :)

love my friends forever :)

If you ever read this

i miss you , peiqi

24hour per day is not enough

Finally had a off day yesterday but still sleeping time will never be enough for me! HA HA .

Went to meet Vivian & her bf to flea market and that flea market is so bored. Nowadays the apparel sold it's so common like every shop have the same things! AND , I didn't spend a single cent at the flea market.

Anyway lesson is super bored and I really don't feel like attending any lesson at all but I did attend them !

All i feel like doing is to dance non-stop haha. Seriously , I feel that dance is super time consuming.. I haven seen my dad for 5days already man . aww~ i miss him so much .

Performance coming up soon , thats the reason why I need to stay back every single day to practice. These I'm desperately seeking to improve my dance and I want it so much that I think I over-stressed myself.

I had conversation with some of my friend and I realize that I should take things slowly. Most importantly have faith in myself. I gonna work smart too:)

I'm swear I'm super tired , I need to rest and I MUST rest!

DURING OUR BREAK TIME ..

DANCE .... :)

I wish holiday come soon .. .. . and and and and ..

I have get used to my fucking short hair already , miss my long hair! HA HA HA

Thanks , life still have to go on ...

Hello my dear friends and people who viewed my blog!

Thank you for all the concern and encouragement :) I'm fine already .

I had cut my long hair and I somehow regret it so much . I miss them so much :( ARGH

Hais , I should'nt have cut my hair. Once again if you would to ask me why I cut my hair.... LOL

I think you'll think i'm stupid.

Is not because of I wanna have a new look or make over.... But I usually cut my hair when I'm super sad.

Like those to the extreme then I'll think of snipping my hair. I always do that. I hate the result now.

I look like a asshole now and I'm super emo and all thanks to my hair. AND AND if you happen to see me again , please don't ask anything about my hair.

Because ... I have been see-ing shocked faces , wide opened eyes with jaw almost drop and I have been hearing pharses like 'OH MY GOD' and ' WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU' !

Give me a year and it'll be long again. fuck , it's one year!

I am ugly but uglier now! I hate taking pictures now , you'll see a decrease picture in my blog!

Anyway , forget about my hair because I already had cut it. I'm so angry with that person who think she's my bao . I swear she gonna die la.  I believe in karma ! 

School sucks and it's sucks like hell. I miss my formal class and love my w45a more , I swear! It's only second week of school and I have not been in school for 3 days and I keep on waking up late! WTF

I want to get good grades , gonna go school daily :)

What make me happy and excited is that my dear boy is coming back to singapore so soon! Oh man , I miss him so much. Gonna see his ass face again and complaint everything to him again!

He is a sucker cause he ask me to cook for him which I only cook less than 3 times in my entire life. I hate cooking and I seriously don't know how to cook at all .

Damn, I'm gonna try because of  this food face person ! all the best to me :)

Yeah , I going home now! (working)


* nope people kenny and I is not together. HAHA we're not bfgf lar

Nat is love forever

I hate that fucker who use ' her name' to do whatever it is. I don't know if you'll read this but I swear if we are able to find out who are you . Fuck you gonna die so badly.

Bao bao , don't sad okay? Everything will be okay! I'll be here for you always. You don't need to care what people think about you cause if they believe it , they are not even worth to be your friend.

I know it's going to be hard to get over it. Is okay girl , you have me always!

I now more man , cause of my fucking short hair! I protect you!

leave me alone

I think everyone would enjoy being alone sometimes. It make me think of how life was and made me do some reflection on myself.

I think I suck. It's true ...

Seriously I don't know how should I be myself when I'm with my friends. I have no mood to do all fun things and joke around. I'm super tired.

My hair suck . It just so not me. I mind what he thinks , I mind what he likes and I mind everything.
I don't know if I should or not.  I don't know why .

I hate d.... . I hate myself

my dream is ......... .. ... .. .. .

I realise that what bring your most happiness brings your most sadness.

My confident level is zero now . I don't feel like dancing anymore , I really wanna give up. I think my hard work really bring me no where.

I always believe that as long as you practise and work extremely hard , one day you'll get what you want. Now my mindset had changed , i think it's like you need the talend to success in dance. One thing that I don't have , talent.

Why must I always start from abc and not continue ? Why do I not see improvement ? Why must I have the reggae feel? Why whatever I want I can't acheive?

I feel so lousy and hopeless.

anw , my friends who wanted to support me for my performance. Is okay already , cause I'll not be performing for muse anymore but you can come and support hiphop IG.

HATE MY LAPTOP

I think my laptop have serious problem which I don't know what happen to it! I can't log in my MSN and it sucks. Besides that It keep shutting down. CAN ANYONE TELL ME WHAT HAPPEN ?

If not i gonna suffer so much and be in great pain. I swear I cannot live without internet or any networks.

B girl noob

I'm the worst bgirl ever . I hate myself . I very useless . I cannot catch the steps . I cannot remember and recall how i do it . I'm a failure .

love is sexy magic

I was looking through my ex's blog and was looking at the older post which we're still together. So much memories came to my mind and I started picturing all our sweet moments and of cause the bad ones.

Super duper sweet we're so in loved and we were like those lovely dovey couples.

I just don't understand why can things change in less than a year. I'm not looking back and miss my ex bf but I just wonder why and how things can change extremely fast! I was wondering to myself

 ' Is every relationship gonna be like this?'

Love is like magic.

Working is boring , taking pay is excited

I miss my previous job so much! Working at cine leisure is 10 times more fun than working at harbor front! I miss Ddung , Patrick, Nicole , lava , Evadne , Joshua , nick and Jocelyn.. Harbor front only got aunties and uncle. I SWEAR no one accompany me talk nonsense .. SCREAMMMMMM..

Lucky can bring laptop . I work 10hours play 10 hours , HAHA! First time going home alone from work and I realise harbor front to Kallang is so far!

 TADAH~ pictures of me pictures of me ......

My bangs are very long .. it cover my eyes and make my eyes so itchy !

I'm having insomnia every night. I don't like this feeling and i'm feeling very very very bad right now .

This feeling sucks , kaiying hate it:/

Somebody call 911

 uploading uploading uploading photos......

I swear I fucking hate to drink vodlka!

NATTY IS LOVE :)

I can't believe she do ugly faces . I love her so much~

JASLIN IS LOVE:)

VAL IS LOVE:)

Rebel was fun but some shit happen that night . fucking hate it! 

Anyway last night I saw people that i dont wish to see. I'm so glad that everything is over and I wouldn't want my life to be any of my past anymore.

I'm so glad that I pull through cause after all I'm living happily right now. I got a lovely family who love me a lot and I have plently of  friends who will be there for me and have fun together. I fall in love deeper with dance and I smile every single day !!

omg , I seriously want all the people who hurt me before know how well I am today!

Anyway I was talking to Jas and we were talking about some random topics and was sharing with her about some happening in my life ....

She said this :

*You are eyeing on this pair of heels and you like it so much but when u put it on it might looks really ugly on you, or it might fit you so perfectly . You never tried u never know dear
*BUT always remember no matter how beautiful the heels is.........pain is inevitable.

TRUE HUH?

Anyway it's 3:19am now and I can't sleep . So much things running through my mind right now. I miss kenny so so so so so so so so so so so so soooooooooo much! He's is malaysia now and for a month can!?

Take care asshole don't get yourself sick and become like a moron wearing mask alone. HA HA HA