xoxo

26 February 2010

posted !

Since I so damn long never blog , Let's have some pictures okay?

City alive 2010 .

Ya ya ya ya la! All I can say it was really fun ! I hope to be city alive 2011 !@#$%^&*

I really don't know it's me or whatever , I just feel something has change . . . .

3 February 2010

9teen

I'm 19 ! I Got surprisesss! Birthday is over , next year i'm turning 20!

24 January 2010

I'm so occupied! It's 3:50am now and still I'm not sleeping yet ! Mtv channel , facebook , Gmarket , Phone , Music and Msn is what I'm doing now! Damn did you realise that chinese songs are so emotional? The songs kinda affect my mood right now and mtv channel is playing chinese love story ; like im out of love and oh i feel damn fucking hurt and I fucking need him now.

Is not that I discriminate chinese song !! I like them but it makes me feel as if I really very lonely ? Yea and that explain why a few chinese songs is in my mp3. Don't get me wrong , I still like them is just that I stop listening since the day when I broke up with my ex bf. Okay but i still enjoy going kbox.

Anyway I know that my blog have been so wordy these day , I'll try to active my camera and upload it .

Life has been busy so far , exams are coming and I'm so gonna start to revise seriously. Cause my grades sucks to extreme... I gonna pull up my socks .

I predict that life is gonna be so so busy again , another big thing and time consuming Dancework !!

That why I say ... 24hours a days is f not enough. Sigh , I'm thinking to quit my job so that I can go for extra dance lesson and also to rest.

4am now and I so gonna sleep .ok ,I miss k now .♥
k lend me his ipod and idont know how to use it laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Okok 4:01 am , good night

14 January 2010

in school now !

I got home sick . I miss my mommy daddy and sister . Lastly my bed

9 January 2010

what's wrong?

At that point of time when you don't know which direction's best for you. You cry but you don't actually know what you're crying about.
The feeling has been haunting me so often that I can easily feel the emptiness in me . Seriously I don't understand why I'm working so hard and get myself super high expectation. I can't control how I want to feel and how I want myself to be ; it;s like a natural thing that it's in me.
It had been 2 weeks since I had look into the mirror and dance , seriously I was shocked by counting the days. I don't even know how to look directly into the mirror and feel the music. I feel like I'm off beat all the time and the steps and beats just don't match .I think when I start to dance , It's like fucking ugly or maybe I just don't have the confident. I'll get damn pissed off with myself and angry. Yes I know the mentally isn't right and I'm really trying not to dance so much as I really can't take it. I really pray that I have the dancing genes in me or allow me to give myself courage to move on.
I know it's like damn stupid of writing this la . You may think like what the hell is wrong with this girl so obsessed with dancing and herself.
But sometimes it's kinda hurt when I see people around me improving and not me. it's not jealously , I'm happy for them . It's just that I'll feel extremely hurt and foolish again cause f I'm lousy and a f loser. I need my confident back .

by myself

I've learnt that the people you love most are going to be the ones who hurt you the worst, but you're going to have to learn to forgive them for that, simply because you love them. I've learnt trust, and the vulnerability of it; how it takes years to build, but only takes suspicion to break. I've learnt that the most cliche saying ever, "never judge a book by its cover", might just be the most true. I've learnt that no matter how bad your problems are, there's always someone out there having it worse. I've learnt that good doesn't always triumph in the end. I've learnt that sometimes forgiving yourself might be the hardest to do. I've learnt never to give up on the future, no matter how bleak it may seem, because whatever negative thing's happening to you now will pass in time. I've learnt never to set your goal too early in life, because sometimes it doesn't help but instead prevents you from trying out other things.I've learnt that home is always the best, and that family will always stand by you, even though you might not have talked to them for a long time. I've learnt that sometimes the best company is your own. I've learnt that passion is never enough to get what you want; talent counts for more than anyone thinks. I've learnt that sometimes the things we hold onto aren't really what we want to keep; it's just that we're afraid of letting go of the familiar. I've learnt that to let go doesn't necessarily mean to forgive and forget; it simply means to accept.And finally, I've learnt that if you want to love others, you must first learn to love yourself.