Everything was destroy after the break up.Leaving fears to face the world.
I blame every single thing to myself.What the f*ck, for you i given up my God my friends in church ,Guitar lesson , shopping , my cca and maybe time with my family .
Since when i fail to be with you except when I'm overseas.And that's what everything change.I knew it happened long ago its like 2007 NOW and it happened in 2006..
But i knew i was running away from the truth. Guys it is not easy to overcome this,
this is why i stop blogging long before.Because i used to blog things like how happy days with him. He have a new girlfriend , and that make it worst that time.I always met them downstairs and i really looked at them with hatred in my heart.I'm sorry then,but not now. I cried to myself day and night, asking who i am , why do i exist in this world for. It sound drama but wait till it happen to you. All along i being admiring pretty looking girls out there. Asking in my heart that why cant i be like them? And I'm sick of it , finding out what pretty girls look like and be like them? No way! Guys i going my way now. Going back to church , having dance lesson , talk to the way i want , dress the way i want and basically everything is about me.
People assume that i never go in any relationship because i still love him. And me saying that i lose all trust in guys but it was just a cover up for me.Guys downstairs gossip how flirt and talk bad things about me . You guys think i don't know ?Yet i know it all. But I'm too sick of being angry with myself. And i really can't stand people OVER-gossip. I understand that gossip is human natural BUT people OVER-GOSSIP.
People downstairs stop betting that u can get me or you cant.I never want to have YOU back because i realised I'm not myself with you and you are not the same any more.Don't misunderstand i stop loving you .All i want is to be myself
