xoxo: May 2008

28 May 2008

PICTURES

SAKA SUSHI DAY

Round one .

my ruirui .

I love this

my lili:)

LOVE

look at me I enjoy myself so much today:)

27 May 2008

The goodbye

I still love you , yes I do.

26 May 2008

PICTURES

Both dresses I wore belong to my sister.
The special thing is these was wore by my sister as a top :(
I'm so short.!!

I no longer know what I want

I don't know what is happening to me . I cried easily , no longer so strong anymore. I wish I would , I wish I could be stronger. I told myself no point crying , It brings no help to solve any problem, but I just could not control my emotions. It is so hard to handle myself right now. I need to handle so much things. Like exams , dance and relationship. I once enjoy dancing,but ever since I complete myself with others, I lost faith in myself. I stress myself so much that I must do so well in dance.I guess I fail , I am such a loser.I no longer feel happiness in dancing anymore. It is just something that add on my stress, really.
Exams are driving me crazy. I am not good in any subject , I am such a loser.
I don't want unhappy relationship. It is so suffering. I hate to love you cause I don't make a good gf , I am such a loser.
I want back my happiness , can I ?

24 May 2008

Appreciate

I received a bad new upon reading this message from Kerin.
She texts me :'' Mama(my nanny) suspect to have heart disease, her report will be out tomorrow.''
After reading this , I was thinking in my mind what if something really happen to her?
She's the one who look after me since I am young , I love her and treat her like one of my family member. Thank God that nothing happened to her . After this incident , I really learn to appreciate people I love. I don't want to neglect anyone I treasure.

19 May 2008

EXTENSION FRRREEE :)

I had a enjoyable time with my sweetie.We always have so much fun, as fun as ever!
We went to kallang leisure park (starsbuck) to study. I tell you , Coffee became part of my daily needs.
It's so additive ! As you see from my photo I had remove my extension. Sigh , somehow feel abit uncomfortable.
6days to chinese O level , MUG hard :)

3 May 2008

Dance is not for me.

I have ZERO confident of dancing right now. I did practise v hard but it seem no result .
I giving up ..

by myself

I've learnt that the people you love most are going to be the ones who hurt you the worst, but you're going to have to learn to forgive them for that, simply because you love them. I've learnt trust, and the vulnerability of it; how it takes years to build, but only takes suspicion to break. I've learnt that the most cliche saying ever, "never judge a book by its cover", might just be the most true. I've learnt that no matter how bad your problems are, there's always someone out there having it worse. I've learnt that good doesn't always triumph in the end. I've learnt that sometimes forgiving yourself might be the hardest to do. I've learnt never to give up on the future, no matter how bleak it may seem, because whatever negative thing's happening to you now will pass in time. I've learnt never to set your goal too early in life, because sometimes it doesn't help but instead prevents you from trying out other things.I've learnt that home is always the best, and that family will always stand by you, even though you might not have talked to them for a long time. I've learnt that sometimes the best company is your own. I've learnt that passion is never enough to get what you want; talent counts for more than anyone thinks. I've learnt that sometimes the things we hold onto aren't really what we want to keep; it's just that we're afraid of letting go of the familiar. I've learnt that to let go doesn't necessarily mean to forgive and forget; it simply means to accept.And finally, I've learnt that if you want to love others, you must first learn to love yourself.