xoxo

Back to blogging!

2010-11-28T16:20:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone !!

My life has been so damn awesome ! No more sad love story ,less heart broken , less tears ! My life has completely change and yes i declare I hate my past love life to the core but Im still loving my primary school memories with all my friends !

Thank God for putting me in such challenges in life , although it's hurting and left a lot of scars yet I learn a lot!

I love my life my family my bf my friends. I love school and I love dance :)

fcuk life

2010-07-18T16:01:00.000+08:00

I freaking pissed , I freaking sad , I freaking angry . I need to dance now!

insomnia

2010-06-08T03:49:00.001+08:00

3:30am

I miss my sister a lot ! I'm all alone in my lovely room without my sister with me and I gonna be all alone for 5 days until she is back in sg :(

I barely can have good sleep from last week. When the lights is off and I rest my body on my bed , my eyes in shut completely and I'm patiently waiting for my mind to get to a shut down mode. 1 hour 2 hour ... 3hour passed , I still can't get it stop and it functioning like nobody business ;I swear!

Thinking of my past and recalling how stupid and naive i was , all the way from the youngest moment that I could remember until now . All this things just spinning in my my brain and I am surprise how my brain could work this way!

I started to worry about my future about my family , studies, relationship , my career , my passion and so on .

Damn I seriously not sure if this module really is what I want , it's so stress to be in this course yea I could harldy breathe . The competition of my friends and how can i out stand to get a job I want and so on ..

I really wish that I would not go through all these ..

I really had so much to say but .. .

i should end here cause It's too long to post it up . love you

So sick and tired

2010-05-18T22:23:00.000+08:00

Hello people I'm so sick now 38.9 and i'm resting at home now . I miss my exam and I really hate it cause my daily grades so bad . I'm currently in DHHM year 2 in rp now and I really can feel the amount of stress now !
I seriously don't know why ?!?! I need to handle the amount of work in school , like dance and school work.
Don't ask me to give up on dance cause it's my passion .

I really doubt myself that can I survival in hotel industries. I wish my choice was art or something that I like at least I could do something I like . Kinda regret but I not going to give up as I come so far .

Sigh every now and then I really wish that I could know how to take the amount of stress.

I must improve

2010-03-28T12:37:00.000+08:00

Dance work 2010! Hello people DW finally came to an end , I'm so happy even if we didn't win . This is my first competition and I'll never forget how Soul good crew went through ! Love you guys a lot!

Anyway I went to see the my first dance competition (Singapore Dance Delight ) Yew~ like finally no need to watch it in youtube! I really don't know how to describe how amazing are those dancers !

Some crew just make me want to dance and level up quickly! One of my favourite is basic five ! They make me want to learn lock so much! Ya and some dancer their groove is just fcuking dope!

Fcuk la I really need to improve and tell you what I love dance .

2010-03-20T02:00:00.000+08:00

Different style ! Hello people I have new inspiration! :)

I want to learn more improve and level up! I really don't understand why some people would be so proud and yaya like as if he/she dance super fucking dope to the max. Okay look! I'm not been sensitive cause It never happen to me but one of my friend and from what i observe. I know I have no rights to say but it kinda pisses me off ! Be humble la , if not you'll never know if one day the " poorer in dance " will success and do better than you. I'm sure all of us have different style and I feel that dancing bond us because we have the same passion. Why hate ? Why jealous?, when you can learn more from each other and improve .

colourful love :)

2010-03-14T14:48:00.000+08:00

I really love tie dye . So gonna do it for myself once I got the dye! So excited~

Grown up!

2010-03-13T14:25:00.003+08:00

I miss my friends so much! I'm so gonna find time to enjoy kays! I miss shopping and miss FASHION AND DIY things. I so gonna resume everything and start having fun with my hobby after I quit this f job

Some of my DIY ( with my sister )

* The rings is with my friend and she haven return back . I miss them .

better in time

2010-03-07T19:39:00.002+08:00

I might look like I'm completely fine but I'm fucking not fine when the sky turn dark and I'm all alone facing the world myself. I seat at the edge of my bed silently hoping that someone can rescued me from this torturing. I really can't digest this now okay now ! Peace , I use the word now cause I know someday it's gonna be over and I believe that problems will go away . I'm sure that it will visit you soon after you have overcome one ; so take care my friends.
Breathe kaiying , you're still consider lucky compare to others. I think I never learn my lesson . It's okay make mistake learn and die. move on , be good be better . learn.

There is so much more I want to share about my feelings . It's so damn fucking painful that sometimes i can't take it but I chose to keep to myself cause I know it doesn't help when I speak , it'll be still there .
It hint us bad but we still have the love, somehow . It hurt slowly , deeper and longer to heal . I can't figure out why and when fb have status complicated ; i finally know the reason now. When I was younger I thought I was too young to understand love and now I'm 19 ; ok nevermind I think when I'm 28 I'll know okay maybe later later later and later when I get old .
Fine ! I still don't understand ; and I'll put you in the deepest soul and continue moving on ... I'll deal with my passion and thank God i have one . oh and it's my passion and family keep me going. Take note that I didn't use friends cause I really don't know who is the real one of there ; only a few. When I recall how a 10 years friendship fail when she have a new love . It's unfair cause I treated her so real and love her so much that I would stand up for her for anything. I will be remember for life .

I'll definitely think of you and I'm gonna miss you so much . yes so much

fated

2010-03-04T22:58:00.003+08:00

It's not that I don't like is I fucking don't have talent compare to all and I'm like so lack behind and the feeling sucks, trust me.

I wish i was born with talent f , im useless okay

posted !

2010-02-26T22:42:00.000+08:00

Since I so damn long never blog , Let's have some pictures okay?

City alive 2010 .

Ya ya ya ya la! All I can say it was really fun ! I hope to be city alive 2011 !@#$%^&*

I really don't know it's me or whatever , I just feel something has change . . . .

9teen

2010-02-03T14:36:00.002+08:00

I'm 19 ! I Got surprisesss! Birthday is over , next year i'm turning 20!

a post

2010-01-24T04:17:00.001+08:00

I'm so occupied! It's 3:50am now and still I'm not sleeping yet ! Mtv channel , facebook , Gmarket , Phone , Music and Msn is what I'm doing now! Damn did you realise that chinese songs are so emotional? The songs kinda affect my mood right now and mtv channel is playing chinese love story ; like im out of love and oh i feel damn fucking hurt and I fucking need him now.

Is not that I discriminate chinese song !! I like them but it makes me feel as if I really very lonely ? Yea and that explain why a few chinese songs is in my mp3. Don't get me wrong , I still like them is just that I stop listening since the day when I broke up with my ex bf. Okay but i still enjoy going kbox.

Anyway I know that my blog have been so wordy these day , I'll try to active my camera and upload it .

Life has been busy so far , exams are coming and I'm so gonna start to revise seriously. Cause my grades sucks to extreme... I gonna pull up my socks .

I predict that life is gonna be so so busy again , another big thing and time consuming Dancework !!

That why I say ... 24hours a days is f not enough. Sigh , I'm thinking to quit my job so that I can go for extra dance lesson and also to rest.

4am now and I so gonna sleep .ok ,I miss k now .♥
k lend me his ipod and idont know how to use it laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Okok 4:01 am , good night

in school now !

2010-01-14T15:57:00.000+08:00

I got home sick . I miss my mommy daddy and sister . Lastly my bed

what's wrong?

2010-01-09T18:01:00.002+08:00

At that point of time when you don't know which direction's best for you. You cry but you don't actually know what you're crying about.
The feeling has been haunting me so often that I can easily feel the emptiness in me . Seriously I don't understand why I'm working so hard and get myself super high expectation. I can't control how I want to feel and how I want myself to be ; it;s like a natural thing that it's in me.
It had been 2 weeks since I had look into the mirror and dance , seriously I was shocked by counting the days. I don't even know how to look directly into the mirror and feel the music. I feel like I'm off beat all the time and the steps and beats just don't match .I think when I start to dance , It's like fucking ugly or maybe I just don't have the confident. I'll get damn pissed off with myself and angry. Yes I know the mentally isn't right and I'm really trying not to dance so much as I really can't take it. I really pray that I have the dancing genes in me or allow me to give myself courage to move on.
I know it's like damn stupid of writing this la . You may think like what the hell is wrong with this girl so obsessed with dancing and herself.
But sometimes it's kinda hurt when I see people around me improving and not me. it's not jealously , I'm happy for them . It's just that I'll feel extremely hurt and foolish again cause f I'm lousy and a f loser. I need my confident back .

2010-01-05T15:34:00.000+08:00

Fuck flu . it's kinda killing me

holiday end today

2010-01-03T21:09:00.001+08:00

Nothing can describe how i feel now cause tomorrow have school.I really wish that sem 2 end fast cause I don't really like my class and cause of that my grades are really f bad. I have to study bearing in mind that I'm useless and whatever it is . WHAT SO EVER I STILL MISS MY SCHOOL JAPANESE FOOD :)

Sometimes I just wonder why some people out there can achieve what they want or like they have talents and potential in them and so on... Sometimes I wonder why do I even exist in the world where I don't even make a different in the world.

God is like totally unfair to me where he give me ugly features like i'm short ,ugly, fat , poor , stupid and stuff. Maybe the only thing that he give to me which is so damn precious it's my family.

Yeah all I know it's to complaint and complaint cause I really have no mood today and I totally have nothing better to do but to blog! aww how pathetic .

I love school ; it's rocks ! yea~ goodbye

and I need to leave sg

good bye 2009

2010-01-01T17:39:00.006+08:00

Time really passes so fast and it's already 2010 now. Another year had been a history again.
2009 brought me memories for both happy and sad ones.

I remember how I struggle my days in the early months in 09 , it was horrendously a very bad experience that I never want it to happen any more. Basically it was one of the thing that I regret for life ..like and getting along with D that made it the most regretful thing in my f life. And yeah and of cause how I passed my painful days when I'm out of love with my ex bf and stuff...

How I got drunk and making a fool of myself.... I remembered. How I cried and sleep through the pain at night .
I remembered all the pain so clearly even until today
And 2009 is when I decided not to mixed around with them and kept all my good/best memories inside.

Back then I was a regular customer of K box and how we go there and sing uncountable songs and stuff . It was really fun and i miss the days so much. My k box life kinda stop after I turn 18..
When I turned 18 and finally step into my first club at zouk and met a guy who is so damn hot. And when my numbers of visit increase from 1 to uncountable ; I realise clubbing isn't about what I think it was and then I started going there because of my friends and the music.

It was one of the hints in 2009 and I really have lots of fun and met a lot of fun people!!!!!!

Not forgetting to credits my friends that are always here for me. They are here with me always especially Jaslin :) I love you a lot a lot!
Also the misunderstood I had with my secondary friends. I still love you now , cxl lyr! We'll catch up in 2010 :)

Life start to get better as I step into RP ; met my first friend in school vivian and now we're still keeping in touch! Never will I forget W45A my first class where I met lovely people there :)

I never forget how pessimistic i am when i first go to SGC audition . How much worries and fear I was away from my passion but yeah I did it. I met fun people where we start to dance together and fight for our passion. Until now still pessimistic and as low confident as you can think ; I suck at dance big time.

I always keep memories like how BHB practise for showcase and crazy times with nat , kelvin , fara and shark and of cos xoxo gossip girls with zhi wen. How I told Jason that I am giving up B-boy and still trying now . The reason of cutting my long precious hair for getting up sad and stuff. My hair is growing but my dance still not improving !

The obstacles i had with my family and still they are loving me so much. The quarrels I had with my sister and good times we spend together. I don't know how my life was without them . I love you!!!!

Lastly , thanks kenny for being here for me whenever I need him. He's like the light (tink tink ) in my 2009 darkness. HAHAHA

2009; a history that makes me stronger and yeah a happier girl !
FINALLY 2010 ; It's gonna be a good year right?

♥ Dream catcher my new lovee ♥

2009-12-26T18:16:00.000+08:00

The legend of dream catcher :

good dreams slip through the web and into the sleeper during the night

bad dreams become caught in the web and are perished by morning light.

dreamcatcher varies somewhat from tribe to tribe, but the basic theme or intention was to allow good dreams to slip through the web and into the sleeper during the night while the bad dreams were caught in the web and would be perished at morning light

I gonna collect it!

Holiday is ending so soonnnnnnnnnnnn .

2009-12-26T13:38:00.002+08:00

Belated MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE:)

Thanks for all the wishes and the presents . I like it! This year Christmas is so simple unlike the preview years.

Getting bored of party on christmas ! omg~

I had a pink dream catcher and I really love them! Dream catcher is so beautiful , Im gonna collect them!

Anyway we had SGC BBQ ..

Met my dearest girl and went to nanny's house for dinner.

Why my nanny cook such delicious food!!!!!!??? I FINALLY GET TO SEE HER!

My first attempt to at orange dessert made by nanny :)

Matthias's Alvin and the chip munk

I bought pink colour dress ! I like the photo cause my hair look cool wahaa~

AND OF COS WITH KENNY!

AND AND AND of cause with my Jas and Ivy :)

(photo with my dearest bitch) I'll blog soon if I receive the pictures.

I really love the times spend with my friends and family . It is so enjoyable and without them I'm sure my life will be totally mundane . Love you people!

Last but not least !

....

Happy birthday to my beloved cousin , yan tong .

Love you so much . meet up soon:)

emo

2009-12-23T14:19:00.000+08:00

Two quotes written by me .

I've learnt never to set your goal too early in life, because sometimes it doesn't help but instead prevents you from trying out other things

I've learnt that passion is never enough to get what you want; talent counts for more than anyone thinks.

I feeling fucked up now ~ be it friends or relationship or passion or anything else .

2009-12-20T17:05:00.002+08:00

ink me

2009-12-19T19:45:00.002+08:00

I don't know how you feel after looking at this but I really love it .

I want it ink on my body

pm to am

2009-12-19T18:17:00.001+08:00

It's really fun after a little alcohol

yes , too free to post all my picture in my blog now!
Im working , so boreddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd:(

pink kozieeeeeeeeee!

2009-12-17T23:22:00.002+08:00

Check out my new toyzzz . Damn pretty , I love it!

I know 2010 it's gonna be a blazed!

Song stuck on my head

2009-12-16T19:04:00.000+08:00

Holiday!

2009-12-16T03:00:00.000+08:00

Holiday!!!! I'm so happy , why?

MORE TIME TO SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP
NO NEED TO WAKE UP EARLY
MORE TIME TO MEET FRIENDS
MORE TIME FOR FAMILY
SHOPPPPPPPPPPING!
DO SOME MEANING THINGS
WORK = MONEY

anyway .. went bboy today and look at my hand . damn painful! wahaha~

Sorry for lack of updates

2009-12-15T02:46:00.000+08:00

Today is Mus birthday and we gave him a birthday surprise . Anyway not much picture as I video it instead and I don't know how to upload it . WAHAHA ~

I damn lazy to upload to fb , if I got time then I'll do it okay?

This is vivian darling , love her and her bangs is sooo damn cute la .

Proudly presenting freshies showcase . aww ~ everything is over , I gonna miss crazy with my bhb esp FARRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Talking about her ... take a look at the pic below . Damn funny!

Lastly damn happy cause they came and supported me :) I'm really start enjoy with my friends !

2009-11-28T20:46:00.000+08:00

my mom fucking buy fendi bag and now a nine west bag. f

Working is boredd argh

2009-11-28T19:37:00.000+08:00

Today have dance practice and I can't go cause I have to work , Poor me suffering here alone and they were enjoy in school . Damn and we web cam and they dance in front of the camera! DAMN , I so envy!!

I really hope that my dad understand , it's just for a period of time . I still love you all .

It's just that I really love doing this and I really wish to put in my best in every single thing i do .

Anyway , Thursday after dance went down to play . First time ever Play was so packed la . We cab down and in end still need pay for entrance fee. ( before 10 free entry) DAMN IT!
Then drink damn very awful vodka and make me tipsy. I hate the feeling is like my head spin right round right round and almost die in the club.

It was quite fun like Katey perry ' I KISSED A GIRL ' the song you know?
I kissed a girl and I liked it
The taste of her cherry chapstick
I kissed a girl just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don't mind it

It felt so wrong, it felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a girl and I liked it
I liked it

In the club didn't dance much because it was damn packed and play was never so packed! And you know the celebrity talk to me like one sentence LOL . The Irene who is the owner of PLAY ? yeah , I love PLAY!

Last but not least . I went to watch 2012 , great movie and of cos a fan of twilight I have already watch new moon! The movie suck and story books are way better .

THE END

24 per day is definately not enough

2009-11-25T14:21:00.000+08:00

Yea , so it's after flame awards definitely an event I would remember and here are some pictures taken ......

Okay I'm so busy dancing and it's like almost everyday and I mean Monday to Sunday ! I seriously don't mind if my house is beside my school man . Aww ~ I still have like 2 years .

Anyway , I have been very busy about my freshies showcase . It's so tiring seriously and everything is like stress up! ARGH . The showcase it's really not as easy as what I think it is like we really go through a lot a lot of things and now we're not good enough . Hai , sometimes I don't know how can I help my group as a leader it self , I think I suck .

Yea and it's time to hear me complaint again . I want to have holidays ! Every single day I reach home at 12 am wake up at 630am. Damn it and sometimes i just fucking lazy to drag myself out of my bed, so yea miss lesson again, F!

I want holiday and sleep 12hours per day .I miss after O level days , the fun and the good times .
HAHAHA.

Friday is a holiday , Duh Thursday I going PLAY .

Back to basic

2009-11-14T13:08:00.001+08:00

Hello people ! I'm so pack this week because of exam and dance. yeah and I wanna complain about my attendance in school ! I suck at it this semester . fuck , I got to go school everyday ! I feel damn sad if my grades are bad la somehow I need to be so discipline and prioritize my study first. I don't know why when it come to dance I'll be so energetic and I just dance whenever I feel tired or whatever shit.I hope my attitude towards studies and exam will be like the attitude in dance! Seriously no matter what i gonna study hell lot for my exams and come to school!

Wednesday went to watch muse performance. Finally is over and I'll have more time spending with nat again! Hard work pay off yea , they did a fucking good job la! Seriously I like the modern dance item the most ! It's beautiful and graceful la ! If ever i have the chance to choose again , I might go to learn modern dance somehow regret to quit modern dance siol! But yea I know i'm not cut to be in that dance BUT i like!

Anyway , monday is my last paper ! :D

But I got to practice for junior showcase! I like the new song we chose but I seriously look very ugly dancing that choreography. I suck at it . I don't have the feel and i can't catch simple steps . fucking stupid.

Short hair nice a not?

long hair better right? wa lau with some pink extension , chio lor . LOL. i miss long hair ! LOL

Last night I danced with my sister , finally ! I love you poon jia xin! let's reggae for life . LOL

It's really mad

2009-11-07T19:55:00.002+08:00

DOPE! I was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ............
OMG It's so nice@#$%^&*()

Behind scene of our dance photoshoot !

2009-11-07T18:52:00.000+08:00

I so obsessed with dance . I'm so in love with dance . I can't live without dance . I can't be happy without dance . I can't breathe without dance. HA HA HA HA HA HA

so gonna practice hard! JIAYOU!!!!!!!!!!1

Halloween night.

2009-11-07T14:17:00.009+08:00

The night was fun. Lucky we don't have to squeeze in the big crowd on the dance floor.

We went to drink instead! Let's do it again next Halloween!

And I gonna dress up something more daring !

club again soon , after exam! yeah

Halloween night at st james

2009-11-03T00:47:00.000+08:00

I damn lazy to upload the pictures man! HAHAH~ I'll upload sooooooooon .

Halloween night is very fun and I'll be looking forward to next Halloween !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Exam is coming . Got to study , got to go school .

There is still a long long way to go ..

2009-10-30T22:09:00.000+08:00

I supposed to have training today but somehow I skip cause i'm super lazy and tired. I slept all the way to 7pm and when I woke up I feel damn guilty for not going dance today. 7pm and i should be at E4 bouncing instead!

Anyway in another way It's kind of good that I never go practice today cause it has been soooooooooooo long since I last saw my dad and mom. :)

Performance for pre-opening is finally over . Yeah and SGC did a pretty good job! AND I SO HAPPY cause my friends came to watch my performance esp Vivian !

My first performance that I had the guts to ask my friends because I always felt that I am not good enough!
And I'm not saying that I'm good now hahah it's just that ..... ARGH ... i don't know . Cause I'll work very hard for them to see the best of me?

There is still so much things to learn and so many things I need to practice and so many room to improve.

2009-10-27T23:38:00.000+08:00

Exam coming .......
wtf and I have not been going to school so often! I swear I will never skip school already!

ANYWAY~ Thursday gonna perform in school @ south agora at 4pm!

Although our item is not very dope but please do support SGC :)

Gonna party so soon man , so looking forward! :)

love my friends forever :)

2009-10-26T14:36:00.001+08:00

If you ever read this

2009-10-25T18:52:00.000+08:00

i miss you , peiqi

24hour per day is not enough

2009-10-25T16:41:00.002+08:00

Finally had a off day yesterday but still sleeping time will never be enough for me! HA HA .

Went to meet Vivian & her bf to flea market and that flea market is so bored. Nowadays the apparel sold it's so common like every shop have the same things! AND , I didn't spend a single cent at the flea market.

Anyway lesson is super bored and I really don't feel like attending any lesson at all but I did attend them !

All i feel like doing is to dance non-stop haha. Seriously , I feel that dance is super time consuming.. I haven seen my dad for 5days already man . aww~ i miss him so much .

Performance coming up soon , thats the reason why I need to stay back every single day to practice. These I'm desperately seeking to improve my dance and I want it so much that I think I over-stressed myself.

I had conversation with some of my friend and I realize that I should take things slowly. Most importantly have faith in myself. I gonna work smart too:)

I'm swear I'm super tired , I need to rest and I MUST rest!

DURING OUR BREAK TIME ..

DANCE .... :)

I wish holiday come soon .. .. . and and and and ..

I have get used to my fucking short hair already , miss my long hair! HA HA HA

Thanks , life still have to go on ...

2009-10-18T20:45:00.001+08:00

Hello my dear friends and people who viewed my blog!

Thank you for all the concern and encouragement :) I'm fine already .

I had cut my long hair and I somehow regret it so much . I miss them so much :( ARGH

Hais , I should'nt have cut my hair. Once again if you would to ask me why I cut my hair.... LOL

I think you'll think i'm stupid.

Is not because of I wanna have a new look or make over.... But I usually cut my hair when I'm super sad.

Like those to the extreme then I'll think of snipping my hair. I always do that. I hate the result now.

I look like a asshole now and I'm super emo and all thanks to my hair. AND AND if you happen to see me again , please don't ask anything about my hair.

Because ... I have been see-ing shocked faces , wide opened eyes with jaw almost drop and I have been hearing pharses like 'OH MY GOD' and ' WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU' !

Give me a year and it'll be long again. fuck , it's one year!

I am ugly but uglier now! I hate taking pictures now , you'll see a decrease picture in my blog!

Anyway , forget about my hair because I already had cut it. I'm so angry with that person who think she's my bao . I swear she gonna die la. I believe in karma !

School sucks and it's sucks like hell. I miss my formal class and love my w45a more , I swear! It's only second week of school and I have not been in school for 3 days and I keep on waking up late! WTF

I want to get good grades , gonna go school daily :)

What make me happy and excited is that my dear boy is coming back to singapore so soon! Oh man , I miss him so much. Gonna see his ass face again and complaint everything to him again!

He is a sucker cause he ask me to cook for him which I only cook less than 3 times in my entire life. I hate cooking and I seriously don't know how to cook at all .

Damn, I'm gonna try because of this food face person ! all the best to me :)

Yeah , I going home now! (working)

* nope people kenny and I is not together. HAHA we're not bfgf lar

Nat is love forever

2009-10-17T19:26:00.000+08:00

I hate that fucker who use ' her name' to do whatever it is. I don't know if you'll read this but I swear if we are able to find out who are you . Fuck you gonna die so badly.

Bao bao , don't sad okay? Everything will be okay! I'll be here for you always. You don't need to care what people think about you cause if they believe it , they are not even worth to be your friend.

I know it's going to be hard to get over it. Is okay girl , you have me always!

I now more man , cause of my fucking short hair! I protect you!

leave me alone

2009-10-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

I think everyone would enjoy being alone sometimes. It make me think of how life was and made me do some reflection on myself.

I think I suck. It's true ...

Seriously I don't know how should I be myself when I'm with my friends. I have no mood to do all fun things and joke around. I'm super tired.

My hair suck . It just so not me. I mind what he thinks , I mind what he likes and I mind everything.
I don't know if I should or not. I don't know why .

I hate d.... . I hate myself

my dream is ......... .. ... .. .. .

2009-10-14T01:12:00.001+08:00

I realise that what bring your most happiness brings your most sadness.

My confident level is zero now . I don't feel like dancing anymore , I really wanna give up. I think my hard work really bring me no where.

I always believe that as long as you practise and work extremely hard , one day you'll get what you want. Now my mindset had changed , i think it's like you need the talend to success in dance. One thing that I don't have , talent.

Why must I always start from abc and not continue ? Why do I not see improvement ? Why must I have the reggae feel? Why whatever I want I can't acheive?

I feel so lousy and hopeless.

anw , my friends who wanted to support me for my performance. Is okay already , cause I'll not be performing for muse anymore but you can come and support hiphop IG.

HATE MY LAPTOP

2009-10-11T19:35:00.000+08:00

I think my laptop have serious problem which I don't know what happen to it! I can't log in my MSN and it sucks. Besides that It keep shutting down. CAN ANYONE TELL ME WHAT HAPPEN ?

If not i gonna suffer so much and be in great pain. I swear I cannot live without internet or any networks.

B girl noob

2009-10-05T22:58:00.001+08:00

I'm the worst bgirl ever . I hate myself . I very useless . I cannot catch the steps . I cannot remember and recall how i do it . I'm a failure .

love is sexy magic

2009-10-04T17:15:00.001+08:00

I was looking through my ex's blog and was looking at the older post which we're still together. So much memories came to my mind and I started picturing all our sweet moments and of cause the bad ones.

Super duper sweet we're so in loved and we were like those lovely dovey couples.

I just don't understand why can things change in less than a year. I'm not looking back and miss my ex bf but I just wonder why and how things can change extremely fast! I was wondering to myself

' Is every relationship gonna be like this?'

Love is like magic.

Working is boring , taking pay is excited

2009-10-03T23:50:00.001+08:00

I miss my previous job so much! Working at cine leisure is 10 times more fun than working at harbor front! I miss Ddung , Patrick, Nicole , lava , Evadne , Joshua , nick and Jocelyn.. Harbor front only got aunties and uncle. I SWEAR no one accompany me talk nonsense .. SCREAMMMMMM..

Lucky can bring laptop . I work 10hours play 10 hours , HAHA! First time going home alone from work and I realise harbor front to Kallang is so far!

TADAH~ pictures of me pictures of me ......

My bangs are very long .. it cover my eyes and make my eyes so itchy !

I'm having insomnia every night. I don't like this feeling and i'm feeling very very very bad right now .

This feeling sucks , kaiying hate it:/

Somebody call 911

2009-10-02T03:25:00.003+08:00

uploading uploading uploading photos......

I swear I fucking hate to drink vodlka!

NATTY IS LOVE :)

I can't believe she do ugly faces . I love her so much~

JASLIN IS LOVE:)

VAL IS LOVE:)

Rebel was fun but some shit happen that night . fucking hate it!

Anyway last night I saw people that i dont wish to see. I'm so glad that everything is over and I wouldn't want my life to be any of my past anymore.

I'm so glad that I pull through cause after all I'm living happily right now. I got a lovely family who love me a lot and I have plently of friends who will be there for me and have fun together. I fall in love deeper with dance and I smile every single day !!

omg , I seriously want all the people who hurt me before know how well I am today!

Anyway I was talking to Jas and we were talking about some random topics and was sharing with her about some happening in my life ....

She said this :

*You are eyeing on this pair of heels and you like it so much but when u put it on it might looks really ugly on you, or it might fit you so perfectly . You never tried u never know dear
*BUT always remember no matter how beautiful the heels is.........pain is inevitable.

TRUE HUH?

Anyway it's 3:19am now and I can't sleep . So much things running through my mind right now. I miss kenny so so so so so so so so so so so so soooooooooo much! He's is malaysia now and for a month can!?

Take care asshole don't get yourself sick and become like a moron wearing mask alone. HA HA HA

last week of holidays

2009-10-01T21:58:00.000+08:00

Hello people! I met my bao bao and head to town.

I was having leg cramps very badly that I have difficulty walking ! I am so serious it's really very painful laaa.

I was complaining so much and she asked me this .....

Nat: Last night did you drink 100plus?
Me: Ya , why le ?
Nat: you cannot drink too much mineral salt in the night when you never exercise if not you'll have cramps!"
Me: What the fuck I drank the entire BIG GULP!

I was so shocked!

I swear I would not drink 100plus at night and after that we were laughing like two mad woman!

This girl is crazy! I first time see someone get so crazy over bread. She's in heaven when she saw bread!

Anyway after that went to meet up girl friends to club .. yes again club! Actually don't feel like going but since it's my last week of holiday , why not? hahah !

I'll wait for Jaslin to upload the photos then I'll post everything ! :)

Crazily fun-s

2009-09-26T02:07:00.005+08:00

Sometimes I wish my school is 5 mins away from my house ...I hate waking up so early!

She so gonna kill me after I post this. No worries Tan qiqi I'll love you even you look like a bao.

I LOVE YOU (expand nose)

Today no dance lesson laaaaaaaaaaaaa! I come all the way down just to enjoy with my friends, somemore I CAB down!! Omg , I been spending so much on cab i swear! I always late!~ CAN ANYONE TELL ME WHY AM I ALWAYS LATE? I gonna work work work and save save save ... Anyway MUSE hiphop choreo is so nice , so envy I want to learn but I don't think I can catch the steps . So envy .

I gonna practise my B-girl , no matter how much I think I can't! F , I need to so well! I

I love B-girl , B-girl love me okay? please

Anyway after dance go chomp chomp ate a lot of rubbish .HA HA .

Got to sleep people , tomorrow got to work. night nighty folks :)

F off

2009-09-23T22:55:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired after dance. omg! Sigh , I so angry with my parents :( But what can I do? Seriously , I'm born to be stubborn. The more you dispprove me , the more I'll do it! Never fail since I was young , I was like that and that explain why I'm into so much trouble.

I'm so angry !!!!!!!! I wanna throw things now. I want to bite people... FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

Anyway just to share with you guys some video ... MUST WATCH !

FUCKING DOPE

Im going to cool down now.........

Just read , I know it's a long post

2009-09-22T01:42:00.005+08:00

I met natalie , go out with her will die laughing lor . fuck! I'm glad that I know this fucker.

C'mom QIQI , you know i love you.

Anyway, tomorrow there is muse B-boy practise again. Sigh , I seriously feel like

giving up cos it's so difficult. I think after the muse class , I don't have any

confident to B-boy again , I swear and I just don't feel like dancing but i know I will not!

Anyway talking about dancing .... I'm writing for someone special to read about this..

To my beloved sister , Poon Jia Xin :

I miss dancing with you so much . It makes to sad whenever I come home with my dance attire and you're looking at me with anger. I know you envy me cause I can dance everyday and stuff . But practise make perfect my dear girl and I'm super willing to teach you every single moves I learn in school. I don't want dance to destroy our relationship between us. Dance will bond us together instead. There is no shortcuts to success , don't give up ! I'll be there for you always , love you my dear <3

ANYWAY , I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPEN TO MY MOMMY!

SHE CLEAN THE HOUSE AND HELP ME CLEAN MY MESSY ROOM! AND SHE BRING A NEW SHOE RACK TO MY HOUSE ! OMG , I LOVE HER :)

Our caps is increasing .................

My wardrobe have fucking no space to contain any clothes anymore! I swear I gonna cut down on shopping ! Guess what ? I bought a new dress today , sooo pretty and I love it so much . HA HA HA

okay people , i going to rest and have my sweet dream now. I so looking forward going to ah meng cafe and drink nata de co co again. I love my friends and I love my life. night nighty folks!

ANTI-DOTA

2009-09-21T03:03:00.003+08:00

K*N** IGNORED ME ASSHOLE . I HATE THIS GAME FOREVER

PLAY obession

2009-09-20T01:17:00.003+08:00

I went to amk to exchange my dad's birthday gift and then went for a movie.

THE UGLY TRUTH - It is so nice and so true, GO WATCH GO WATCH :)

Some random pictures I took with my BUN on and my new button ear ring. I just love it very much very very much!

I'm having sore throat and cough now , feeling damn uneasy .I'm gonna be sick soon , oh my why my health so bad? I think I'm gonna die early.

I want to pierce my lips , I soooooooooo scared i swear and I give up the idea of putting a tattoo.

Omg , I miss PLAY . I want to go PLAY so SOON. From the day when I step into play , I see every guy and girls behaving like lesbian and gay. I AM SO SERIOUS! Gay and lesbian is just increasing and increasing liao la , i swear!

WHAT IF ONE DAY I BECOME A LESBIAN??????????????????????????

omg , kill me . I am fucking straight. Anyway , i sometimes will doubt myself cause now I totally not interested in guys. STILL let me remind you , I'm STRAIGHT.

my life is .......... FUN!

2009-09-19T16:10:00.009+08:00

Finally meet up my sexy baby! HAHHA She f getting sexier and sexier each time i see her. I love her. We went to st James which is my first time there. The music rock the DJ is power! First time go club with so many people, around 1o i think :) Anyway the dance floor was so pack until I really feel like going home!

Anyway , my highlight is to see my BFF. love!

she's so cute , i swear! hahah .

My sexy sexy~

The following day went to meet tan qiqi. We were suppose to go shopping or ktv and she physco me go PLAY. wtf , i think I very easy physco la!

Play is fun , I LOVE IT .

2 clubs a week . omg , I think im super woman. Next day go dance practise , i almost die there.

I gonna dance like a mad woman and practise harder to get what I want! I love my life and I hope God will never take anything away from me ! I'll always remember how unhappy and tragic my life was in the past. All Thanks to my friends for reminding me cause I am SO free now.

I AM BORED

2009-09-16T18:46:00.006+08:00

Today Off- day no dancing dancing , so rest at home. By right going to school practice B-boy but of all the bruises we have , how to do b-boy!?

Yesterday B-boy was KILLER , I swear! Muse B-boy is so difficult , I think I'm really not up to the standard yet. OMG

This is my group for showcase , quite enjoy being with them la. But overall we're really very distracted! We need to practice very very hard to put out a good show, all the best BHB. AND AND I LOVE SERIIIIII:)

:D She look like Chinese hor ? But she is a Malay .

COOL ?

FARA AND MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeee.

BAO GISELLE

MY DEAREST BAO BAO NATALIE

SEE SEE SEE ! MY BLUE BLACK . When I took off my clothes and I saw this I got shock my life.
I didn't expect to see something so BIG on my body sia! I have really a lot of blue black la this is one of it only ! God bless me and all the b-girls!

I going powerhouse later to see my dearest sexy. It has been soooo long since I saw her and I was damn shock that she told me that ............................
Seriously , SHOCK!

sunflower love

2009-09-15T00:58:00.004+08:00

Kaiying is so so so so so so so tired . Tomorrow i need stay until 9pm , it gonna work out!

I LOVE dance , I love my family , I love my friends and my life :)

random- ness

2009-09-10T02:50:00.003+08:00

BUSY BUSY BUSY LA . Anyway just want to let the whole world know that kaiying is enjoying her life .

I'm sick again and I hate the feeling! Everything started because of FLU again. I so gonna meet SEXY again , I miss her and I want her to know I'll never forget her until the day I die.

Like what I say .. I feel that I'm neglecting my friends but I really want to grab every single chances that I have now. I still love you guys :)

YAY , I got a new phone! No longer have old phone!!! LOVE IT TO MAX!

I AM WORKING NOW

2009-09-06T20:05:00.004+08:00

I AM BOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDD

It's holiday and I spend most of my time going back to school to dance. I hope that I will really improve and move to the next level. Partly cause junior showcase is coming so soon and we got to choreograph our own steps. Anyway , this is my first time choreographing steps ! My group members rocks! Break Hop Bangers will definitely do well in showcase :)

I got into B-BOY but not HIPHOP audition for MUSE. F sad , It means that I'm not good enough and I going to work extremely hard.

Managing my time is so so so difficult . I think I spend most of my time dancing but not spending time with my friends and family.I miss them! ( JASLIN, IVY , VALERIE , JIA , EDERLYN , W45A , VIVIAN , YUEHAN!) I so gonna take off and enjoy my holiday!

Besides missing my friends , I miss fashion too. I so gonna do a lot of things like cutting my own clothes and doing my own accessories too! I wanna get more accessories especially something to put on my hair. Oh I cut my own bangs and it totally look like shit!

I wore this for class presentation and they say I look like .............. HAHA

* someone stalk me and made this picture ! LOL

Oh and I open the comment box again! Please do comment if you was here. LOVE:)
My life is a blaze now , i enjoy it !

Pictures uploaded guys:)

2009-09-02T00:36:00.003+08:00

My party people yeah!

for you

2009-08-31T02:41:00.005+08:00

Should I say I am disappointed in myself because I had change to another person which you guys don't want me to be ?
OR

Should I say I'm disappointed in you guys of not accepting the way your friend should be because you stereotype people?

It was been so long but after listening to it , I felt hurt and sad la.

Clubbing doesn't mean anything . 1stly i go club to dance and enjoy! I never find guys and do whatever shit that you guys can imagine. I love the music ,atmosphere and dancing with my girlfriends. Whats wrong?

I don't fucking get myself drunk already cos I hate drinking.

It doesn't mean by doing all these mean I have change and stuff. You can't expect me to be at home 24/7 @ home watching tv , computer and sleep.

I'm still kaiying and I'm definitely not the person you think i am .

2009-08-29T01:47:00.002+08:00

Hello people , I just went to zouk on Wednesday! Mambo night is fun , I love mambo I love mambo I love mambo!!!!!!

Phuture dance floor sucks as usual very pack and i fucking hate a lot of things in the dance floor. I just wanna dance man. Anyway enjoy it with girlfriends la. ( photo upload once I got it )

I going PLAY next next thurs with bao and her friends. Omg it's gonna be fun right? After all is all girls and I can don't care about guys!

Damn sad cause I think I dance like shit. I hope i'll improve. Junior showcase coming , I don't want to pull my team mates down . I gonna practice and practice and practice.

My semester one in school.

2009-08-26T14:10:00.007+08:00

Exam finally had over! Oh man , I have 5 weeks of holidays now yeah but quite busy! Anyway , I so sad that sem 1 had over cause we need to change class again! I love w45A :)

This is vivian choo ! I know her when I first day go to the orientation. I miss her so much la.. Now that I have dance , I hardly have time for her .. Sorry girl and I promise you holiday we must meet up cause I have a lot a lot things to tell you man . I'm so so so so glad to know you , love!

Pictures of W45A

This is jolene ! She always teach me maths ... science . HAHAH . Thanks girl :)

This is miss yu hui! hahah , she's so cute I swear . She love pink and hello kitty (same as me) HAHAHAA

Ederlyn chan li ting! Argh for all people I'll miss you most la. I'll miss you I'll miss you !!

We must meet up okay ? She's the most crazy woman is class and I swear I love her la although we know each other for 1sem but ............. LOVE HER!

This is stanley a fucker . Hahah He always make me laugh and stuff la . He fucking like to disturb people and I don't know why.

OH man and this is my baby yue han . She very dot on me , i love her !

*(actually there are many many more pics but f lazy)

Anw I got a lot a lot to post but fucking lazy la. Well w45A will have outing soon right? HAHA

I want take more picture with my bff , raflee! Aww so excited!

I love SGC ! they are like a family and my bao family forever.

OKAY people , I going to meet my most love now . Tonight mambo woooh!

2009-08-21T01:33:00.004+08:00

kaiying miss him , how :(

Rebel / working

2009-08-17T09:29:00.008+08:00

Oh man! Finally met my dearest bitch and I miss this fucking girl a lot! We went to rebel and it's quite different from the past few times I went.

I love rebel DJ because he's fucking hot ! He is too sexy to be a DJ lar! I was looking @ him all night and seriously can't take my eye off him , WAHAHAH~

Anyway a lot of interesting things happen! We saw fights and it was pretty scary;/ They were so near to us , making us pathetic and we were like keep moving back. I think clubs is not a place where you get died drunk and die laying on the floor outside the clubs.Totally unglam!

It has been a long time since i go to club and that night we leave early as tomorrow I have work.

I love dance forever!

WORKING

As I mention working is really very very fun. Do you ever think why people is so crazy about animation and toy collections?

When I was working at Ddung shop and selling dolls , I think people who buy this doll is kind of stupid. Why people spend so much on this useless things instead of buying clothes or useful things instead!?!?!?! Now I know the reason of spending @#$#$%

I'm so happy that I have a chance working at the Suntec toy convention as every single stall is selling all the useless things like me! haha anyway , I seriously in love with toy collection .

One of my favourite is Blythe Dolls

Look! They're so pretty right?

When the first time I look at them I was so scared of them but eventually when I was working , I keep going back to see them and slowly I am in love with them. Blythe doll have some X-factor that make me want them so much , it's like an obsession! I want them but I can't afford as they are too expensive . One doll is around 300 up to 1000?

Anyway , I love TOKIDOKI A LOT . You guys can go google on tokidoki ! I love th creator and I have 1 tokidoki stationary and a lot of stickers. The creator is hot and I swear I going to queue for his signature next year when I have the money to get some stuff from there.

I got a devil soft doll I forget the name but the creator is very cute! She gave me 2 free gift and gave me her signature:)

I FEEL SO CONTENTED !

* picture of Blythe in my boss DSLR , will upload so soon.

DSLR is so fun !

Lastly thank you Patrick:)

toy convention @ SUNTEC

2009-08-17T00:27:00.002+08:00

I in love with collections and I gonna collect toy seriously. I'll post more about it and it's so fun working at the toy convention. I met so many new friends and interesting things. Blog about it soon!

KERIN TAN MY LOVE .

2009-08-14T12:24:00.006+08:00

Finally met my dearest girl yesterday and we went to visit mama who is in the hospital.
MAMA , I HOPE YOU GET WELL SOON ALRIGHT? God bless you :) Anyway I am really happy to see my MAMA , KERIN , ER JIE AND SAN JIE. I really miss them a lot.

The hospital is so strict now due to the h1N1 and we need to wear mask in order to go enter the hospital. My poor mama cannot eat anything and she was talking about all the food which make kerin and I hungry.

TADAH ! We went to eat sushi WAHAHA because ederlyn chan she don't want accompany me eat. She's a bitch !

FRIED EBI , By right I cannot eat because it's prawn but I ate it!

After eating my lips swallow and I only ate the skin og the Ebi . LOL

I really very enjoy going out with her, we laugh a lot a lot and I'm so happy!
KERIN TAN DO WELL IN YOUR EXAM OKAY? I LOVE YOU FOREVER LA.

2009-08-11T23:14:00.002+08:00

I got fcuking bad flu again .... I hate my nose and my flu !
How can I stop my nose thingy?

YAY ! Larry is not calling me Mary anymore and he remember my name today! LOLS

M'sia trip

2009-08-10T20:26:00.008+08:00

Tadah! Finally Performance over :) I think I have a lot a lot to improve and to work on. I must dance more practise more and more and more....

LOVE DANCE!

Anyway I went to m'sia for 4days to my grandma's house and Genting Highland. Whatever it is , I am so happy that I am away from spore for holiday.

I have some pictures but please don't be shocked that I had bangs. Yes , I cut my hair and I damn look like a 15 year old girl.

The best thing about holiday is staying in a HOTEL. I had separate room with my parents and I have plenty romantic time with my sister. Another best thing about Genting is the super cooling weather. woo~ Who don't love the weather there!

This is my grandma house but we sleep in our uncle place with air con!

CAN PEOPLE PLEASE SAVE THE EARTH!!!!

My favourite girl!

My girl took this picture for me when I just woke up. lol

He's so cute , I swear!

Holiday end back to real life. Exam is coming , I got to study hard.!

busy busy week

2009-08-03T23:26:00.011+08:00

I went to st james flea market! WOO , I totally went mad la . Spend a lot of money but then was fucking fun , I swear!

Another thing that brighten up my day was the food @ chomp chomp. Oh my god going out with them is super fun and on top of it I haven been meeting darling so often.

Anyway , I so looking forward to the plans we made! Right girls? *SMILE

SGC

Performance coming and we practise like mad but it's super fun cause can dance:) Anyway I starting to love B-boy cause I did practice @ home! It's like super tiring and my leg super pain:( TELL ME IS ALL WORTH IT RIGHT?

Kaiying is so looking forward to our showcase on thursday!

The pictures is a lot more than this just that I super lazy to upload!They're a bunch of fun/loving people including me , I swear!

Okay , I blog-ed. Night nighty folks

school

2009-07-31T10:56:00.006+08:00

Omg , it was been so long since I blog!

I have been enjoying class so much ! So sad ,I'm going to change class so soon :( I'll miss ederlyn, stanley , raflee and w45A la!

Act cute forever

oh my god , I tell you every time I look at this picture I'll laugh madly . Seriously look @ ederlyn
HA HA HA HA HA HAHAHAHAHAH

Nowadays I stay back in school until 10plus for dance. It's super tiring but I think it's all worth! Dance IG rocks :)

Friday

2009-07-28T00:43:00.007+08:00

W45A wore formal for enterprise , just believe it that I wore heels throughout the day.
School to family gathering to club and the next day I have blasters and it fucking pain.

Photos

There is this event in school ignite and by right I'm going with my friends but I need to go sg flyer (family gathering) . Anyway , I think I really miss out the fun la cause I heard that there's is a lot of handsome guy! ahem , joking.

I think my relatives are rich they always held family in launch room and stuff which i think it's quite cool. It's really beautiful there, seriously I hope to go again!
I'm so glad to see my cousin but I really do miss times when I was young!
So after SF went zouk. okay should not blog more about that cause it's too fun to post!

Officially I'm not working @ Ddung shop anymore but now waiting to get interview by another boss. I'm so gonna miss working in cine! I really thank God that I could work here as in like I really do know a lot a lot of people and I'll definitely miss my boss. I hope that my boss will not close the pushcart :(

So weekends I am free and now that I am free ~I going to do some stuff that I wanted to do long before but I don't have the time. I'll share with you guys soon !

2009-07-24T01:12:00.003+08:00

I'm so lazy to blog nowadays! p/s

Anyway I did manicure ! PINK

Kaiying miss going to ktv , singing emo songs and be emo.

I want go take up street jazz.
I want improve my B-boy and .
I want to do a lot of things!

Anw just to inform you guys that there'll be a flea market at st.james on 2nd aug.

I'll blog so so soon . love me!

2009-07-18T21:38:00.002+08:00

Okay people i am sick and I refused to stay at home ! My family usually not at home and always I'll be alone at home when I am sick. I hate to be alone and being alone at home makes me have more space to think about things which I don't want to remember.

Supposely going a party with evavne but I didn't go! What can I expect having fun when I am so sick. I am so pissed and since long before I have been so exited about this party. Too bad , fated!

anw I going to ecp now. Have plenty things to blog but damn lazy , bye!

weekend

2009-07-07T10:11:00.004+08:00

Went club and totally sucks . Nothing much all i can say it's fucking boring

I wear my new heels and ended up this way , it's fucking man I swear man.

After clubbing jaslin came over my house to stay, we slept in the same bed and we slept around 5am. We woke up early in the morning to sentosa.

Sentosa is so fun cause I have not been going sentosa since last year... Love the waves , love the water , love the sun , love the sand and love the smell!

It was fun we played volleyball and monkey ! Aaron and gang like super noisy but overall I have fun so so much.

omg ! Jas , val and I wore bikini ! My first time~ (SHY)

After sentosa go och , most of them didn't go and they are mostly guys. Damn no balls la , haha because I'm so proud of myself going there. It's because I promise Jas and kc... Lucky two of jas's friend join us if not end up three of us and I'll cry inside.

I didn't see any ghost there but the atmosphere is super scary. I swear It's my first and last time going there.

2009-07-02T01:41:00.004+08:00

Okay sorry people I fall asleep while mediating again but seriously I read about it and it's proven by scientist that it works! I'm mediating about my dream and of cause for not eating so much! Obviously it doesn't help cause I fall asleep !

I don't want go school , I still want to play more. I hate waking up so early and travelling so far man.

Today working is fun with nicole! My gfs came to find me after work , so sweet right?

Saturday is my off day! I'm going sentosa and OCH ~ I can't believe I'm doing this, amen.

no work no school

2009-07-01T02:22:00.005+08:00

Yeah people I woke up early to dye my hair dark brown and it turns up like black! I think I like the idea of having black hair !

Okay not really early and I miss my trip to the history museum with them! Anyway today was fun with them. We went to ah meng cafe again! It's like a favourite hang out place for us and we can like there for hours drinking that pink rose drink with na ta de coco. woo damn shiok!

Jas look like she got big booty but it's not really true. lol

My shopping list had been increasing rapidly after reading fashion magazine and reading fashion magazine. I had been reading about meditation and I'm so curious about it! Does it really works?
Last night I try but I fall asleep and later I'm going to try again!

I got so many "F" and 3"D"s of not doing E-learning la ! fuck e-learning grades doesn't affect my overall grades but I'm so guilty

night nighty folks , tomorrow working again!

2009-06-30T00:55:00.003+08:00

Work is always so fun with nicole and time pass faster than usual!
Wednesday working and as well with her so damn happy :)

I LOVE FASHION AND I WANT TO LEARN AS PART TIME !
I don't care if I success but well I'm just gonna do whatever shit i like . (soon when I get the $ myself )

After all really love my work place at times. Recently know so many people and I get to know a lesbian who is damn inspiriting! She share with me a lot of things and I almost want to cry!

I going to have a fun day tomorrow with jas and kc ! Tomorrow I'm going to do something that I wanted to do long time ago~ lol provided if I could wake up.

Came home and webcam with jas . The picture so funny , her webcam hang and her facial expression turn up damn funny ! ( she's gonna kill me man) Jas .. to me you look pretty and hot everyday. lol

Im missing school and dance practise but I still think school should start next week ~

Extended holiday

2009-06-27T03:12:00.005+08:00

Yeah having extended until Wednesday.

I really have so much to said but I cant think of any now. I'll blog soon !

2009-06-26T11:57:00.004+08:00

Didn't went school instead went ktv with my classmates and friends for 2days !
It has been a long time since I went ktv , abit outdated!

School has been extended officially and damn lame need to stay at home do the e-learning . It's stupid la, fucking lag the system totally suck!

Anyway H1N1 is increasing rapidly , so scary! I hope the virus will stop soon man. I want go dance lesson!

Ederlyn and me.

She's the girl that I am very close in class only , I guess. Anyway love her and w45A!

MJ , please R.I.P

Processing

2009-06-23T22:49:00.004+08:00

Things have change so much especially myself. Time pass so fast and it doesn't slow down. After school and then dance and then work, so tiring.

But when I really have the free time for myself to rest , I'll hope that I don't have .. I rather myself busy doing something else to keep me occupied instead.

I think it's very difficult for me not to think about x. It's like a daily routine that I must have x in my mind. It's like a habit for me not to cry and get so sad about it anymore.

Sometimes it's quite tiring that I need to act like I don't even care. I don't even know why must I act like I don't care , ha.

Lately , I think I have grown up abit more. I'm not creating any trouble for myself anymore.
I'm so happy that I have learnt how to not message/call you when I miss you so much. Also , I have learnt to be strong when Im alone. Even though sometimes I felt that I can't make it until tomorrow, you know the feeling sucks .

I'm not hoping anything from you and to be honest , I lied to you regarding "our worry" . I don't want see you under so much stress. Peace , one day I'll be a superwoman not and walk away from this situation . I swear!

It's time to change inside out

heels are sexy

2009-06-23T00:27:00.002+08:00

I have no idea why I'm so in love with heels nowadays. I think it's the inheritance of my mommy!

Heels are sexy moreover I'm short but seriously I hate to wear heels because it's damn painful!
I need to learn to love heels

Oh my god , check out this heels! SOOOOOO PRETTY!

My sis and I treated dad and mom hk cafe. We got him a CD (The very very old band abba) and he damn happy that we bought this for him!
I'm really happy to see them smiling. Anything I'll do as long as my family is happy. I'm seriously bless in this family , i swear! love

Rebel rocks

2009-06-23T00:00:00.003+08:00

Okay , I'll blog about club now.
It's really a fun night cause we dance so much that we sweat like nobody business.

Girlfriends are totally mad and crazy that night. We don't really care what people think about us , keep on joke laugh and gossip!

I don't know why after this round of clubbing, I felt that our friendship grow a little more.
It has been so long since we done something so crazy together can!? HAHA

Well the music was totally awesome, good DJ (some more so hot) and nice green tea! Oh ya , can you imagine I actually drank green tea instead of cocktail? I'm like damn scared of alcohol especially long island , the drink suck big time!

Trance totally sucks at zirca because of some ah mor. He's damn @#$%^&*() irritating.
Argh , I shall forgive and forget!

Look at my darling , so so sexy!~

CHAO ~

Had a great time with my gfs .

First week of school

2009-06-21T02:18:00.008+08:00

I hate myself with dark eyebag .

My hair is growing longer and I'm loving it!

YAWN ~ tired , need to wake up early again...
School is always fun! Yea , I'm getting closer to my classmates and they're really very funny people who can make me laugh like nobody business!

I attended my first dance practise in school. My friend list had increase tremendously, hoho!
I'm really glad that I'm a part of this family. This week learn how to do baby freeze , damn cool! At first I can't do it but eventually after some practise I manage to do so. Phew ~ Finally had my dream achieve !

School , dance and work had became my daily routine in life! I'll just go straight home after school to have some sleep. In fact no other activity anymore. Unlike those holiday days which I could do plenty of things.

Friday night I wanted to sleep all day but I don't know what reason should I give my friends for NOT clubbing and I went with them~

Guess what people? I'm so glad that i made the correct choice!!!
Rebel is super duper fun ! It's not about going club and grind anymore man, trust me!
It's about the awesome music and dancing with your friends! If you change your mindset about clubbing , you're definitely going to enjoy big time!

I'll share more about this when I got those photo ~

Tomorrow work , night nighty folks!

mum , sis and I bought heels for $200 in total within 20min.

I bought my own mp3 ~
Time to save money . peace

2009-06-12T03:30:00.001+08:00

kaiying need a new phone .

Dance camp

2009-06-12T02:07:00.006+08:00

Hello people ..

Yes I'm going to share with you guys about my dance camp. It's really fun to be in this camp but despite all the fun , I still think that I had gain a lot !

I did not know anyone in this group , all of them are strangers to me and yet We need to choreograph a dance to showcase. Our group have a lot of conflicts but I guess we had one same desire which is to dance.

And I'm so proud of my group and myself cause we did our very best!
Special thanks to natasha and grace (:

Tadah this is my group and we are call
22FEET

Supper time!

This is B-boy session .
LOOK !Larry is pointing at me. He's picking my mistake! This is the first time I learn B-boy and I'm struggling but it's really cool !

LOVE MY GROUP , THEY ARE SO FUN !

Game time . The picture is so funny hahaha~

After our showcase! Look at us , we're so happy cause we done well!

EVERYONE (:

Lastly ... The result in out friends!!! yay and
I DID IT ! YES !!!
PS . need to work very very very hard to brush up!

Kaiying in love ~

2009-06-10T01:30:00.002+08:00

Oh god , Im not kidding I'm in love with luo zhi xiang. yaya ~ I know I'm abit too slow to fall in love with him. But seriously I find him so attractive when he dance and his character and the way he talk and and and so much more!

*shy

2009-06-08T15:12:00.004+08:00

Met my girls on 0606 . This is a special day to us .. lazy to elaborate cause we have a long history. Anyway , this year we did not go ktv .. we broke the tradition!!!
We went to ah meng cafe aka banana cafe to chill.

whatever it is I think I'm super bless to have them in my life. Although I have a lot of friends but when I really need them , they'll be here for me. Our friendship are damn strong , trust me!

I'll blog about dance camp later~

zouk out

2009-06-05T02:02:00.002+08:00

zouk again. Mumbo night is fun people~

I had a very fun and great experience when I first step into zouk , which is few months ago . Nowadays club is not as fun compare , it's getting bored ~ But yea yesterday was fun , saw a lot of friends last night . The dance floor was basically packed like hell man , damn irritating. So end up sitting outside with my f heel off my feet , cause it's hurting my feet damn bad . F hate heels but they're sexy , I admit

I'll blog more often cause I have a lot more to share!
I want a make-over , peace.

2009-06-01T00:56:00.009+08:00

I finally went out on Saturday. It has been so lloooooooooonnggggggg since I went out on weekends cause I have to work !

Fun time with my sister cause lately do not have time spend with each other. She's one of the best gift that I receive in my life !

At night my dad bring both of us rounding. HAHA~ It's really a stress release thing as I'm super stress up and down these days.

School work and dance is the only thing I deal with now , in life

This week I went to have dinner with my secondary friends. Everyone went separate ways and seriously i miss secondary school life when we're busying studying for O's . Those were the memories that I'll never forget in my entire life.

Went sakae sushi and that's when I learn to play L4d. Okay , the game is so fun. I play @ home and I scream a lot , I swear!

Now Im like having 2weeks of holiday!~ yay and I having dance camp this week! I'm so looking forward to dance. Hiphop not modern dance!~ Oh .. did i mention I break down and cried during modern dance practise. It's so hard for me :( I'm going to work very hard , I promise.

YAY , My holidays are plan to enjoy .

P/s for not blogging recently , I;m really that busy.

2009-05-27T17:50:00.004+08:00

Life has been so busy , it's like a routine keep going and going on until it has not stop. I really need to be in a place where I can live happier or maybe a sanctuary for me to rest and get well.
I really want to write down all my emotions in this blog so that I could feel better but it will certainly make it worst. I know exactly what's going on and could nearly see what's going to happen next.

That's the reason why I need to keep it to myself and make things happen as shallow as possible. It is one of the most hurtful things. I know I should not blog about my feelings but this is the best I can do

This Coming Holiday, yay!

2009-05-24T19:31:00.003+08:00

Finally my first holiday in school is coming sooooonnn and I'm so looking forward to have all fun although I'll be working still.

Dance is still making me so stress and I really hope to see result so soon. I want to do the turnings cause It's my dream to learn that , i want to do turning so badly! Hiphop camp is going to be a breakthrough for me (i think) cause there will be dance practises and DANCE EXAM.

Seriously I don't have much confident that I'll get into the 2nd round of audition and pass my dance exam . Anyway I'll try very hard and do my very best!

School is really enjoyable and I get to know a lot of friends. They're nice but somehow it take time to see a person true colour . I only need some bestfriend or maybe one , a quality one who'll be here for you . Instead of finding those people who only wants attention cause it's so cool to have one big group of friend , isn't?

Woohoo~ I'm going to party so soon cause it was been long since I went to a party . School and work really kill me very badly . Breaking my brain cell a lot and money matter seem better now.
I need to play all my heart out ! CHAOS !

2009-05-20T01:08:00.003+08:00

Yesterday we wore the same tee to school. LOL , it f funny cause when we walk around people tend to look at us and comment us that we're cute ! HAHAHAHHAA~

Picture taken without the shorty *b

Class is usually fun.

I hate the feeling when you feel that you're facing the world alone today. I think I lost the feeling of falling in love and I really miss the times.

Falling in love is definitely dumb and I know that I had learn my lesson. I just feel that people might take me for granted, it's really f true!

I miss days when I am still a kid ... when time is not as complicating compare to now. If I got a choice , I'll change my destination today which is impossible.

For now I just need to keep going and do well in study as well as dance. Good day forever , peace.

dance revaluation

2009-05-18T22:42:00.003+08:00

Today I almost want to break down in dance practise because I really can't have the posture and feel that I want. I think I made the worst in the whole team .Hais~ Modern dance which consist pointing and turning is the first time that I'm doing this! Warm up became so important because I can't even do spilt !

I know practise made perfect and I certainly can't expect too much yet cause after all I'm a beginner in this section. I think I fall in love with this very very graceful dance which I never thought I'll be dancing today.

fun in school

2009-05-16T00:14:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HONEY YUEHAN!!

We got a her a surprise just now. Finally she's the first person who is got REALLY surprise yay!
I'm enjoying my days in school!

Today almost half of my classmates didn't turn up for lesson! argh but class was fun still~

My group mate for enterprise !

After school went cw and makan then went bitch house to zz.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA~

Oh ya .. I went to modern dance and the practise super duper like ballet . It's difficult but it's very inspiriting. I'll do my best and have the feel on modern dance!

ARGH , tired siol tomorrow I'm working again! I need cash and more cash forever.

I MISS YOU BAD

2009-05-12T23:27:00.005+08:00

In my 18years living ,this is my first time to Marche ! Met Jas and sam for dinner and went shopping. Thanks sam for the treat and for doting us so much , love! BFF~

Jaslin food like drop into her drink . It so funny lar ! HAHA~

School is fun and grades can be improve! Good news for me...

Yeah I went in for hiphop audition but there's another (2nd) audition ! Hopefully I can pass my 2nd audition and I'll try my best.

This week I went to accompany my friend for the audition for modern dance and I got in too! yea! It's my first time dancing modern dance and I think I'm in love in modern dance although it's so not my style.

MOTHER'S DAY CELEBRATION

when to eat dinner with family @ indo restaurant . Damn good like the food. We get mummy a river island wallet and she love it a lot. Mummy , I love you forever!

(sorry for not posting often)

I pull it through!

2009-05-05T23:34:00.006+08:00

sad sad. I screw up my dance audition again! Yeah , I don't even think I could lget into the team at all. sigh , but at least I try and I didn't like leave the studio. I still love dance hais~ Audition is my greatest fear , so scary!

hello anyone here for me?

2009-05-04T17:47:00.002+08:00

I think nowadays I super sway. Yesterday when i was working I lost psp . I was attending a customer and place psp behind the push cart. Less than 2min everything gone. My ezlink and money also lost, fcuk broke. Tomorrow will be the dance audition and I really want to be in the team cause I really do love dance a lot more than you think. Guess what? When I was walking home just now I felt a sharp pain on my leg. I cannot believe I saw this nail penetrating my leg , bleeding massively . Sigh heavily :(